I Try

(words, music and arrangement by Andy Ainsworth)

Hello, it’s me again. I’m here alone and I need to talk to you.

I never hear you answer me I never get the truth.

Since my youth I’ve tried in vain to walk beside of you,

Your shadow seems to fall on me, no matter what I do.

Look at me and tell me what do you see? Look inside of me deep.

Am I the sum of all my faults or is there hope for me?

(chorus)

Is it worth it or is it all a lie.

Will I come back or will I be denied.

If being my self’s not good enough why should even try.

Is there hope for me? My head in my hands I cry.

Hello? Can you hear me? Again I am ignored.

You want me to confide in you, but just what do you take me for?

Tell me do I waste I time? Tell me to go to hell.

Just tell me before I lose my mind and my life as well.

I could be yours if only you knew the love I felt inside.

But your eyes they never fall on me, I live my life denied.

(chorus)

Is there hope for me or should I say goodbye?

Come out from behind our lies, the Wizard of Oz hiding up in the sky,

You always make me wonder why… why I try.

I feel like the last of the sane, with insanity growing inside my brain

Up is down; I’ve grounded the sky. Still I try.

I know! I know! I’ve heard all your rules. Do you think me a blind man or just a fool?

I deviate. I can’t stay in line. But I try.

Looking back there’s no way to tell if tomorrow will bring me heaven or hell.

Come what may, if I live or I die at least I tried.